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Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Kaname Kuran; Yuuki Kuran; Zero Kiryuu
Seriously I am not following my emotions right now , but I feel that I have enough of my parents now as to their behaviour and attitude at home. Well I think I shal clarify. My parents both father and mother are people who have traditional mindset which means that they prefer kids who follow their orders around and do things that please them . Well , obviously , I am a unfilial kid to them cos of my late return home and also of my busy schedule to not able to stay at home , so in their eyes it is not acceptable. Thus , in stead of spending their time getting to know me , they labelled me as a rebellious kid and isolate and don't want to talk to me about everything. As for my father , I just have a mindset that as a father , he should be a model for a young man like me to follow, but instead of that , he is always ordered around by my mum and also not do any improvement in his life . His social life is also very small and he , like my mum is so judgemental ,I rmb got once he asked ' did i go church ?' when i return home late from school , also he asked really weird questions like ' is red cross related to church cos gt the cross sign' so stupid.
my mum is no better, she will always compared me to better off cousins and said I am lousier come on going to RP gt its benefit and i don;t think being studious is good when grades is a temporary paper on thing and the thing is u muz apply what u learn to your future job. However, as they are so tradition , both feel that going to uni is a better place off! Haiz .,.... I really have a big quarrel with them today and even Xu lao shi said my mum has become weirder in terms of her behaviour and she is so judgemental when I did not practise often so I must be taken away the opportunity to learn further when she herself put all the money on it for me to advance in it (my erhu), since she wasted so much isn't it a pity to give up? So dumb.
Daphne cheered my day up with 2 verses matthew 15:4 and also ephesian 6:2 For god commanded saying : honor thy father and mother . and he that curse thy father or mother , let him die of his death. Another ephesian is " honour your father and mother " - this is the 1st commandment of the promise , think need repent to god later. Neh told me that we both need to cool down and scoldin my parents is a sin . Haiz!
Thirst for blood
11:06 AM