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Friday, November 21, 2008
Kaname Kuran; Yuuki Kuran; Zero Kiryuu
STRESS STRESS STRESS
Actually , yesterday happened something major , but I do not wish to say here because I myself is embarrassed of what I have done , the thing is that I totally mess up the organization yesterday and I do things according to my will . Admit that it is my mistake and I am not going to do it again.
Well a couple of weeks since I update,actually don't have that mood la. However, I feel that blogging is a good way to destress other than praying .Yesterday thing really make my morale wana drop to the pit bottom , as I start to doubt my organizational skills , do I do things before executing the final decision. The conclusion is, I am stubborn and I never listen to other people advise when I am kanchiong . Thats why for some of my acc nick I put it as maikanchiong. But still kanchiong make things wrong. I really pray and hope that this fund raising is really going to be successful as we have cruise through all the management restrictions and also the pressure on us by external parties.To this fact that I even left class before 3rd meeting starts and left my teammates to fend for themselves and go lib study with teresa. In the end , the UT is a pure 30 mins and I am not confident of scoring well with it though I study hard for it.
No mood for everything. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Thirst for blood
11:04 PM
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Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Kaname Kuran; Yuuki Kuran; Zero Kiryuu
Seriously I am not following my emotions right now , but I feel that I have enough of my parents now as to their behaviour and attitude at home. Well I think I shal clarify. My parents both father and mother are people who have traditional mindset which means that they prefer kids who follow their orders around and do things that please them . Well , obviously , I am a unfilial kid to them cos of my late return home and also of my busy schedule to not able to stay at home , so in their eyes it is not acceptable. Thus , in stead of spending their time getting to know me , they labelled me as a rebellious kid and isolate and don't want to talk to me about everything. As for my father , I just have a mindset that as a father , he should be a model for a young man like me to follow, but instead of that , he is always ordered around by my mum and also not do any improvement in his life . His social life is also very small and he , like my mum is so judgemental ,I rmb got once he asked ' did i go church ?' when i return home late from school , also he asked really weird questions like ' is red cross related to church cos gt the cross sign' so stupid.
my mum is no better, she will always compared me to better off cousins and said I am lousier come on going to RP gt its benefit and i don;t think being studious is good when grades is a temporary paper on thing and the thing is u muz apply what u learn to your future job. However, as they are so tradition , both feel that going to uni is a better place off! Haiz .,.... I really have a big quarrel with them today and even Xu lao shi said my mum has become weirder in terms of her behaviour and she is so judgemental when I did not practise often so I must be taken away the opportunity to learn further when she herself put all the money on it for me to advance in it (my erhu), since she wasted so much isn't it a pity to give up? So dumb.
Daphne cheered my day up with 2 verses matthew 15:4 and also ephesian 6:2 For god commanded saying : honor thy father and mother . and he that curse thy father or mother , let him die of his death. Another ephesian is " honour your father and mother " - this is the 1st commandment of the promise , think need repent to god later. Neh told me that we both need to cool down and scoldin my parents is a sin . Haiz!
Thirst for blood
11:06 AM
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Sunday, November 9, 2008
Kaname Kuran; Yuuki Kuran; Zero Kiryuu
Looking for potential teammates for FYP!
AHahhah as the season is getting hot again , well , its time to look for FYP teammates again! AHAH! Well, now, for my team , only have allan and me, for those who are interested in working with me , please call 83514924!
Thirst for blood
4:46 AM
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Saturday, November 8, 2008
Kaname Kuran; Yuuki Kuran; Zero Kiryuu
Hey guys! Very long to update as I find no point as R.I.C.E project is taking most of my time and also have nth much to blog about. Well, I really must thanks stephan who is always there to assist me for my fund raising planning as I am inexperienced in this and also he give me a lot of valuable suggestions to improve on my proposal. And micheal approved it ! Ahahah . Well next is just to action plan place what is planned into action.
Well, I admit that today is certainly a draining day , went to singapore biennule run duty and also headed dw to svc. My saturday as usual start early like previous week wif recce trips on and on. So basically only me mich ,huili and natasha turned up and natasha wear makeup for duty somemore. Today is really v draining cos we walked from raffles city to esplanade overhead bridge there and then from there have to walk to the prominent site. Well, really cnt tahan after the exploration of route le. Well , something funny quite happen today in the disguise of natasha . Well the whole thing start with nat tinking raffles hotel is in bugis and thus we head dw there to meet her n huili , and mich even suggested us taking taxi there, guess what? raffes hotel is juz beside raffles city where we gather in the morn man.LOL mich wasted $6.90 for nth! ahah. Well, had a long day before gg to svc. Well , stephan told me he felt v warm hearted when i folo him for svc LOL! seems like he is expecting a no from me liao but i surprise him wif my answer, since the fact that i rejected neh the day earlier.
Svc today is abt the last part of haggai and also that first time since i left hope that i seat so near to neh they all.LOL. Kinda surprise as usual I am cold towards them except stephan and emily. Well think I need more time. God grace is enuff for us and his grace is providing comfort and melting my harden heart. God is a great lord!Something really i learn from today is god allows catastrope to happen not wants it to happen because it cn make ppl to be awake to reality of god. Ahahaha , well, think thats it for this post, good night!
Thirst for blood
7:19 AM