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Sunday, March 30, 2008
Kaname Kuran; Yuuki Kuran; Zero Kiryuu
WOW!this pass week or so have been a spiritual gifting from god and I admire him for that ,I think I have gain a lot of things through the KL trip and the arete camp that ordinary people would not get in hand with easily and I can say that both are equally fruitful to me !1stly,I want to thank go here 1st also that he gave me the spiritual mental and courage to go for the arete camp because it is been a very hectic KL trip where we will nt hit the bed until like 12 to 1 plus so I at 1st thinking of giving it a miss as i m too tired to do so but god told me that I am nt spiritually tired that is the state which is worse than physically tired so I should nt find excuses to go for the camp .
Ok I share the arete camp 1st.actually i sort of like wrote the 1st post in the bus gg back to downtown east.What I can say is that I am really v fearful when I reach singapore because I have not speak to god for 5 days and I think it is really a long time god has spoken to me in these 5 days and I am scared god have forsaken me already because i juz cant feel him anymore!we camped over at jacob place then we head down to golden mile complex then we had lunch there and i go and fetch emily.A fun and loving sister ,thats hw i describe her anyway she was rewarded for that later part then i mention it.we had sort of like mass teaching at golden mile which is fruitful ..the thing that strike me uring the 1st teaching is how to overcome temptation is to love for the holy spirit through the qualities of love ,joy ,peace patience ,kindness ,goodness and faithfulness.why I strike it the most because I never live to the holy spirit but nv live for the holy spirit and the qualities I lack of a lot la. After that we had our talent night and rp is acting a musical ahaa i was made to scold people on stage no choice director plan mah...then I think we did a good job though we had hiccups here n there during the last rehearsals that we had .we did a fine job and i also like the performace by NYP and the (forget what poly)jeremy's institution performace.haha.We head down to the chalet downtown east wah shiok sia cos i nv been there before seriously ours unit is a double storey 1 so that means we gt ample space for more than 4 ppl to share ,but everything is good except the air con is damn super cold sia.ahaha at least i enjoy the things there.
Early next morning ,damn funny me n luke 1 of the mates wait up early to wake for the alarm clock to ring lor because luke wake me up cos the way he speak like my maid sometimes liked hey quai dao 8 dian le qi lai qi lai like my maid n i always like wake up immediately then i was liked oo is luke nt kaka ahaha.then we had workshop next the course i choose is the rediscover the bible in a new n creative way haha i admit my QT is rather dry with just reading the bible bt this course teach me a lot of stuff to improvish my QT while the purpose of serving god is still intact.Then we went down to golden mile again for teaching and p and w ,then at night right i try using the method i learn during the workshop and i use personalization then i was liked hw come macam like summary all the words i changed here changed there then in the end i happen to figure out what god trying to tell me la so amen.
then for the last day we checked out of the chalet early because we had a long day a head of us at golden mile complex u might be wondering which part of golden mile gt such space for us to have such a big so call event la i will tell u it is at the golden mile exhibition centre bt it dun look like exhibition centre can aldy.then we had our last 2 teachings by pastr jas liyan n nell ahaha love nell teaching so much man show hw bonded she n christ is .then we praise and worship anyway do u all know that we had been singing awesome god that song for the past few days can become like the arete camp anthem liao .rejoice anthem yeah ahaha.then we had our theme night always look forward to this event .Mine is a shirt with 2 layers bt then it is liked just 2 pieces of cloth attach to this white formal shirt yeah and i think i m ill prepare for it because I feelthat i shld have worn my cross and a tie during that to enhance the whole image and lucky luke lend me the chain to make the whole thing look a bit zai aha.I think i look ok la bt nehemiah is liked damn funny gt a flower on the centre of that shirt i think it is sell cheap because gt 1 flower there n no body wana buy so discount .emily look sophisticated and jas it is liked i 1st time see her wear dress bt if like i think right for her dress
if she gt wear tou jin will look better bt i think it is more suitable for gurls with long hair bah...then we do catwalk row by row like harmonious march like tat ahha cos nobody including me gt no experience to do catwalk .then it is like the whole thing look really like prom night lor then we gt dance everything ahaha get to see pastor jasmine dance on stage then we liked partying there la damn fun gt the step up 2 music also damn cool.After that ,sayonara aldy.bt this camp other than the excitment and everything wif be it wif yr spiritual mates and bros n sis in church I think right we had fun with god and the passion for him is growing this camp is just the starting point!opps nearly forget ,I have a short chat with liyan before I go she said liked must jiayou for the new believer harvest and be a sherperd from it she add on to say that she say no need to fear for that because as u sherperd u will grow more in yr spiritual life and she can see the passion for rp hope to grow up because of the speech she say and she send over shareen to help out when they are all from NYP .ahaha she recommand a book call life to the fullest jas also told me before abt the book think need to head down to nexus to buy and shun bian buy the book pastor micheal show us .ok i sign off from here.
C.K
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6:37 PM
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Monday, March 17, 2008
Kaname Kuran; Yuuki Kuran; Zero Kiryuu
aha recently nth much happen to me everyday it is liked stay at home and skip two days of sow because of my sickness .........well aha bt i still gt turn up for the kl mission trip meeting ok?aha well basically ytd i learn a lot of stuff regarding red cross and the history behind it and also get to know some frens from other polys and mainly simei ite ,they are all nice people especially people like victoria ,guo ying hong zhou and stephan (not that stephan from our cg arh ).basically,for the trip we will do a role play as part of the culture exchange programme to the msian partners so we decided to do a role play on the founding of singapore by the king shanrila-wutama(dunno hw to spell).very kindergarden guideline la which i did in primary school children day before .ahaha guess what i m doing the advisor which i tink only have a few stage lines to speak bt mich once again become the leader of the gp n he is asked to act as the king itself ahahahaa.cannot say that we agree to this idea all at once la beginning ,jordan come out with 1 idea that make all of us laugh man ....he said we sing chamali chan,singapura very ethnical singapore songs n mashiana this interesting gurl from np suggesting cheorgraphy dancing to the music bt when we hear the actual music playing from the cd we r liked hw can we dance with such slow n draggy music???ahaha .and ya she is also the one suggesting we do the fashion show with us wearing our ethnic costumes chinese indian and malay all blaja.ahahaha,funny sia ytd .
also we are suppose to act a role play in the terms international humanitarian law ,and we are liked so chim sia hw to act out a law ?bt it is liked u have to act a case study la it is a big phewwwww man.bt the biggest thing is that we r gg to a campsite lor!walan ,here goes my 5 star hotel tat i dream of daily man also the list of items tat we r suppose to bring are all neccesities la so nt a big prob bt cannt bring laptop n psp everything bt u can bring hp bt even if u bring u also no place to charge wad so might as well dun bring ....cos we staying in the wild in the middle of a soccer field?hehe gonna have a survivor way of life for 5 days who is staying who is leaving stay tune!ahah also in the form right they say we r given 50 ringgit to cab back down to singapore u noe who is the guy who glimpe at this mich la arbo ahaha.basically we get the rough idea of what that is gg to be taught during the camp that is IHL which the trainer is nt very sure also aha .so ppl from our cg ,we r gonna reach singapore on the day u all tonning at jocab place so be prepare to ying jie wo men in yr dreams ^^.
this morn i was liked gg to ica to get my passport la n it is liked aiyo have to wait 99 more turns for my turn i was liked slping over there all the while ,then this lady that is serving me is very good la cos as u all noe right the standard price for a passport is 120 dollars bt u get the approval of the officer u will get to pay 70 dollars only then this lady say it is quite difficult to approve cos of my reason which is damn stupid to me get damaged by water when washing my clothes ,bt anyway she convince until i get it pass yeah my new passport done can go KL liao !!!woooohooooo!ahahaa!i tink this time god is trying to test my efficiency which is obviously lacking in me cos i always drag n drag for doing so in the end have to wait till today then get it and patience for waiting for my passport to get approve .ahaha thx papa!
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11:06 PM
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Thursday, March 13, 2008
Kaname Kuran; Yuuki Kuran; Zero Kiryuu
This is a post that i read juz nw that moved me a lot and set me reflecting on hw much i have done to cultivate my holy spirit and my soul have i done anything to it what have i done to cultivate it so that it can last with me till when i reach the kingdom of god ?
Once upon a time there was this girl who had fourboyfriends. She loved the 4th boyfriend the most andadorned him with rich robes and treated him to thefinest of delicacies. She gave him nothing but thebest.She also loved the 3rd boyfriend very much and wasalways showing him off to neighboring kingdoms.However, she feared that one day he would leave herfor another.She also loved her 2nd boyfriend. He was her confidantand was always kind, considerate and patient with her.Whenever this girl faced a problem, she could confidein him, and he would help her get through thedifficult times.The girl's 1st boyfriend was a very loyal partner andhad made great contributions in maintaining her wealthand kingdom. However, she did not love the firstboyfriend. Although he loved her deeply, she hardlytook notice of him.One day, the girl fell ill and she knew her time wasshort. She thought of her luxurious life and wondered,I now have four boyfriends with me, but when I die,I'll be all alone.'Thus, she asked the 4th boyfriend, I loved you themost, endowed you with the finest clothing andshowered great care over you. Now that I'm dying, willyou follow me and keep me company?''No way!', replied the 4th boyfriend, and he walkedaway without another word. His answer cut like a sharpknife right into her heart.The sad girl then asked the 3rd boyfriend, 'I lovedyou all my life. Now that I'm dying, will you followme and keep me company?''No!', replied the 3rd boyfriend. 'Life is too good!When you die, I'm going to marry someone else!'Her heart sank and turned cold. She then asked the 2ndboyfriend, 'I have always turned to you for help andyou've always been there for me. When I die, will youfollow me and keep me company?''I'm sorry, I can't help you out this time!', repliedthe 2nd boyfriend. 'At the very most, I can only walkwith you to your grave.'His answer struck her like a bolt of lightning, andthe girl was devastated.Then a voice called out: 'I'll go with you. I'llfollow you no matter where you go.'The girl looked up, and there was her first boyfriend.He was very skinny as he suffered from malnutritionand neglect.Greatly grieved, the girl said, 'I should have takenmuch better care of you when I had the chance!'In truth, you have 4 boyfriends in your lives:Your 4th boyfriend is your body. No matter how muchtime and effort you lavish in making it look good, itwill leave you when you die.Your 3rd boyfriend is your possessions, status andwealth. When you die, it will all go to others.Your 2nd boyfriend is your family and friends. Nomatter how much they have been there for you, thefurthest they can stay by you is up to the grave.And your 1st boyfriend is your Soul. Often neglectedin pursuit of wealth, power and pleasures of theworld. However, your Soul is the only thing that willfollow you where ever you go. Cultivate, strengthenand cherish it now, for it is the only part of youthat will follow you to the throne of God and continuewith you throughout Eternity.Thought for the day: Remember, when the world pushesyou to your knees, you're in the perfect position topray.Pass this on to someone you care about - I just did.Being happy doesn't mean everything's perfect. Itmeans you've decided to see beyond the imperfections.I hope this touched you!
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8:07 AM
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Kaname Kuran; Yuuki Kuran; Zero Kiryuu
haha i wana apologise for being too emo in my last post cos i could nt help bt thinking abt it everytime again n again.........sort of like affect my emotional mood recently bt i sort of like sort out my feelings le with mich words and sherperding god is great man send my spiritual buddies to come help me with my spiritual growth which sort of like recover my emotional strain=)anyway recently is a damn busy period aiya cant help always before sch reopen always like tat last yr is work job bt this yr is slightly diff is more of like personal value or cg value =)hahaha basically this year we r to get 50 ppl into our cg and expand it into a number cg before my nehe graduate i saying in the custody of nehe wor haha.anw recently a lot of things happen blessings n disasters !haizz life is like that full of up and downs zhao jiu xi guan le juz wait for the next disaster to come bt hope the next blessing can come the next min!haha,god plan all these to come upon and we juz have to accept as part of our spiritual growth and our mental growth if nt u tink hw r we gg to mature ?anw 1stly i gonna say is that 1st i went for membership class last sunday bt the day strt wif a 1st aid duty sounds boring ?yeah it is boring !cos i was liked reached the place at ard 1000 bt it is like mich n zabeeth are liked trapped in a jam ,haha nt by cab wor!ya they reached like 1030 and i was wondering ard the sch n i was liked wondering hw can rp organised something as lan as my sec sch which is almost the same gui mo as it and the organisers are seen playing basketball at the entrance of the sch and the court is so small until u can only throw the ball only from outside court macam like the pasa malan the throw the thing then if u zhong u will get something kind .well nth much happen during the duty except some self exclaim honey of zabeeth is being disclose to naive rc members like me ....ok...i was liked ok nt much of a excitement .
We reach the membership class very early at ard 2pm then we juz slack arnd there and that is when I 1st time saw pastor diana wow she is such a inspirational person cos we r liked tired over there then she came over and asked abt we all and she speaks ina very refreshing manner which i can compare to like jovin .haha !bt the sian part is emily osana and jas osana nv come then have to bai tuo my boss to come pei me .the membership class is ok i love the part when pastor diana speak abt it tats y my testi share mostly abt it ..haha.basically most of the parts are covered during the sherperdings that i had bt i tink god wants me to go for the membership class is nt for the card bt for refocus on why a member in the church is so important to be me in the growth of my spiritual life bt i agree this time we r nt awared of the new process to get into the membership class la this time need leader recommendation n we r nt awared of it until we reached there lor bt nevertheless we gt the permission to get in though my expression nv shows that i m worried for nt being to attend the class .well and the good food yum yum gt hokkein mee bt nt my taste haha sorry for letting boss to finish up for me >< .I love the chocolate brownie and the fried shui jiao and the bacon =)more like side dishes than main dishes for that day though ,anyway i find it meaningful because it makes me know what to o QT for that day haha .
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Thursday, March 6, 2008
Kaname Kuran; Yuuki Kuran; Zero Kiryuu
Hehe ,well i m writing this post on a early morn of 5 am cos i find i have the environment to self reflect about myself .The main goals for me now is 1)Red Cross 2)Cg 3)SYCO .However,I have been self asking myself for the pass hour the most basic question of everything n even direct to the main goals of the current phase of my life.Why did i go Cg?isn't that a simple question i ask myself however it is so hard to answer !well ,i can come up with 101 reason however i dun tink any of them are my true feelings !Why did i go cg when i had to neglect another goal of my life ,SYCO?why must i have to make a choice between the 2 when i wana accomplish two things at one time?reason being i wan go cg is because ,they make me feel family warmth something i m backlusted of 10 years i thought i have become si xin to family love as i dont believe anymore but this cg make me realise somewhere outside even if the person is nt related to u by blood also can provide u family love.Also i never meet before anyone so earnest with no bad motive saving n leading me away from satan mouth that torture me for so long.Well,it is over .However ,my goal in my life have to interfere with my relationship wif papa ?why it is constantly getting into the way ?shld i give it up ?i feel like giving both up !to save myself from this disease that will relapse anytime .Sometimes ,I juz hate myself cos i always twists the truth and always hiding my true feelings away from people !These always result in misunderstanding and cause disharmony among people when will I be able to learn ?My current idea is that I might as well quit SYCO since i wana serve god thats my purpose in gg water baptism isn't it if nt i mind as well backslide before that ,and i feel that since I am halfway there aldy n i have develop my relationship with papa aldy i cant just severed it now because of my goal which i maynt even use in heaven to praise god right?Also i feel that my bonding with erhu is getting weaker n weaker i dunno it is even meant for me?shld i juz quit it nw to serve god wholeheartedly n nt be distracted by anything?i dunno arghhh 心烦！the only thing i noe nw is papa i love you very much what can i do to save me from thing ?i m getting migrain from it again!papa jiu jiu wo!!Papa,why are u giving me such a test ?why r u letting me pass the audition in the 1st place?are u testing my faithfulness or my stamina in withstanding blows?what shld i do?i Dunoo!how i wish to be a kid like kid again where i can soar freely in the air.......
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